A mid-autumn's day I will never forget
03:30 Mom woke up couldn't breathe. She asked dad to pat her back as she used her inhaler. After awhile, she said to dad to pat harder. Before he could, she passed out. Dad woke Shelby to take care of mom while he wake the rest of us. Somehow mom fell from bed and was lying on the floor.
04:00 I woke up heard Sylvia screaming that mom couldn't breathe. I ran into mom's room found her laying there on the floor. CK was there checking for her pulse. Mom's eyes were half opened. She wasn't gasping for air .. she seems like she was sleeping.
Dad and Shelby ran out of the house asking for help. But nobody came. We tried to do CPR but she still wasn't breathing. I felt useless cause I didn't know how to help her. I couldn't only say mom please stay strong. Ming was aslo whispering at her ear asking her to stay with us and then she felt mom's tear on her cheek.
We carried mom to the car. Ming drove her to the nearest clinic. Minutes later she drove home. Everything was over then ... she had no pulse. The doctor confirmed she's dead.
It's is the hardest moment of our lives, to accept the truth. We tried hard not to cry. We believe she it would be hard for her to spirit to leave knowing that we are sad. Many times we tried to tell ourselves that it was the best. At least now mom doesn't need to suffer anymore.
We cleaned mom's body to dress her. As we were doing so, I saw many bruises we made on her as we were struggling to carry her to the car. Nothing feels worse that not able to help her and yet bruising her all over.
No words can describe that pain in our hearts. We've never done our part as a good daughter. I guess we will never have another chance to thank her and tell her how sorry we are and how much we love her. So many regrets but it's all too late ...
04:00 I woke up heard Sylvia screaming that mom couldn't breathe. I ran into mom's room found her laying there on the floor. CK was there checking for her pulse. Mom's eyes were half opened. She wasn't gasping for air .. she seems like she was sleeping.
Dad and Shelby ran out of the house asking for help. But nobody came. We tried to do CPR but she still wasn't breathing. I felt useless cause I didn't know how to help her. I couldn't only say mom please stay strong. Ming was aslo whispering at her ear asking her to stay with us and then she felt mom's tear on her cheek.
We carried mom to the car. Ming drove her to the nearest clinic. Minutes later she drove home. Everything was over then ... she had no pulse. The doctor confirmed she's dead.
It's is the hardest moment of our lives, to accept the truth. We tried hard not to cry. We believe she it would be hard for her to spirit to leave knowing that we are sad. Many times we tried to tell ourselves that it was the best. At least now mom doesn't need to suffer anymore.
We cleaned mom's body to dress her. As we were doing so, I saw many bruises we made on her as we were struggling to carry her to the car. Nothing feels worse that not able to help her and yet bruising her all over.
No words can describe that pain in our hearts. We've never done our part as a good daughter. I guess we will never have another chance to thank her and tell her how sorry we are and how much we love her. So many regrets but it's all too late ...
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