Happy 2003
It's New Year's eve, it doesn't mean much to me it's just like any other holidays. I have nowhere to go because everywhere and everything is too expensive to party. But something changed all those moody feelings ...

From: SC
Date: Tuesday, December 31, 2002 03:01:22 AM
To: sw; implusion
Subject: ngo dei weng yuen dou hai hou pang yau ....

Dear Impulsion & SW it's time to say bye bye to year 2002 . I hope we all will hv better chances getting richer, "waterfish" :P & go on trips together. Btw I just wanna say " i'm glad u r my friends" .....Impulsion u r my fren who downloads mp3s and burn them on cds for me despite that snail internet connection. Sw u r my friend who sleeps while watching movies in cinema (sacrificing $$$ & time to spend time with us (me & impulsion). Finally i wish both of u.... a very HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

p/s Most important is STAY HEALTHY

luv
SC
*Prettiest girl in d UNIVERSE*

Happy New Year everyone :)!!

Can I have some food?
Module 3 started today. Went to class feeling blur because the lecturer was going on an express way. A new guy joined the class, he somewhat seems to be the only one understanding the lecturer. I refuse to think that I can't catchup with the syllabus so I magine this new guy is in our class because it is his refresher class :P

I've too much money problem to worry about these days. I'm paying the rest of the tuition fee MYR3500. My second sister offered to help pay my house rent like MYR500. I don't really favor accepting offers from her. Knowing her, one day when her craziness attacks she will bite me and say "Remember how I helped you!!!". Geez, I hate it when it happens but I really need money till I finish this course and get a job. I don't dare imagine how long my money can last till I run home and beg for money. Very soon I'll be eating white bread and water! Anyone care to donate some food? *blink*

I don't need these...
Often I wonder if I'm not suitable for online interactive games. I get so emotionally distressed. I've had enough from buddies so much so that I have decided to leave what I started, my buddychat at Avatar MUD. L told me many times that I should just quit this game because I suck when it comes to emotions. Sad but that's just the way it is.

I can manage insults from people I don't know but when it comes to insults from friends eventho they meant it as a joke I'd get mad easily. Maybe people just fail to see that they shouldn't take advantage of a friendship and assume you'd be alright *sigh*. Today, they told me they're sorry and what not but that doesn't make a difference to me anymore. Damage done, I forgive you but it doesn't ease the thought in the head. I need to get away from these craps I don't want to get to the extend of being like him.

Merry Christmas

Is there no freedom to speech?
I remember how I shut down my previous site because I didn't want "someone" reading my blog and interpreting different stories from it. When I created this blog, I promised that I won't let anyone that doesn't understand the meaning of respecting privacy to ever read my blog again. Today, I learnt something new. There is no freedom of speech evenif it was your own blog.

A friend, told me that he was fired because of what he said on his blog. His bastard managers were so lame that they had use a blog entry as a reason to terminate a work contract. I used to fuss about my job alot on my blog but I don't see what damage that can do to a company when no names are mentioned, unless the reader is guilty as said in the blog? It's our blogs we can say anything we want. Sometimes I wonder if we should even publish their f*cked up company names in our blogs. These companies deserve this kinda nasty payback.

How shitty can things get? Have we no rights? Geez, I'm totally upset over this whole thing because it makes me think about my own lay-off - eventho I don't f*ckin like it. Some work for because the love working while others work for money sake. And I am one that works because of money only. Not like I enjoy working around people who does nothing but kiss a$$!

Break a hole in your pocket
Christmas is just 4 days away!! I have too many presents to buy *panic*. I went to the post office yesterday to send Eraine's Christmas gift. I had the box wrapped up in some nice gift wrapper. The guy at the post office said I send it if I am going to use the wrapper. I can only use plain white or brown paper. Hehe ... that shows how many times I've actually gone to the PO to send something. The PO that I usually go to has services to wrap packages but I don't know why this one is so lousy :P. Anyway, I walked around the mall and found yellowish brown gift wrapper and I thought I'd get it wrapped at the PO. Well, there wasn't any tools (no scissors nor cellophane tape, nothing at all!!). I had no choice I simply tore the gift wrapper and made a SUPER ugly wrap. Then I saw this white guy he was also wrapping his parcel, I asked if I could have some of his tape and he looks at me totally puzzled. Anyways, he said ok and I got it wrapped and send. Eraine! Forgive me for that ugly wrap :P.

My dad, after a LONG painful wait for eye operation, is now schedule for the operation. Yet, there is no specific date to the operation, there is a long waiting list. Since his last admission to the hospital May 2002, he has been waiting. At that time our concern was if the doctors could save his eye. After discharge, the doctors said that he has to wait 6 months and within which he should not get another infection. Well, our major concern has now changed to the success rate of the operation. The doctors said not to expect a 100 % success as my dad is diabetic and recovery is usually longer than a healthy person. I guess he has to be extra careful about things he eats and his medication from now till operation.

SW, SC and me planned for an early gift exchange as I may not be home for Christmas. We're going to MidValley for gift exchange and a semi-luxurious dinner tomorrow ;>. Hmm I hope the Christmas deco at the MidValley center court is still there because I want to snap some pics!!

School breaks for Christmas after today *YIPPEEE!!!*.

One rotten apple...
I was walking back to college after going to Maybank at Megan Phileo, from far I saw a familiar face. Someone I DON'T want to see! Okay, so he didn't notice me, I lowered my head and walk a little towards the inner side so he won't see me. Suddenly, you hear someone calling out your name aloud. Wft! The bastard MY from the my f*cked up ex-company, saw me.

In fact, this wasn't the first time I saw him. Since school started, I've seen him around but most of the time he didn't see me so I just avoid it. Maybe I shouldn't be angry with the rest of the people from that company but this is the best I can do :p. One thing's for sure all the other employees are either real friends of my a$$hole ex-boss or the are pure ass kissers. Friends will always take sides of their friend so I concluded them as evil too. And as for MY, he's a freaking dog that kiss bosses' ar$e.

He asked what I was doing around this place, he said he saw me once but I was too far away for him to call out. So, I told him I'm studying full time. And he goes, "Whoa! So rich" and I go, "Yea, what to do when you're rich you can afford to study full time". He laughed and I gave a vain laugh as though I was kidding. He asked if I was looking for a job. It's none of his business what I do so I don't intend to feed him with any information so that he can talk about it. Afterthat, I quickly excused myself saying class was starting >:D.

At school, a new Indian girl joined the class 2 days late and she's sitting in front of me. She has this very strange habit. I think she doesn't take her own notes because she kept asking for my notes and then she gnawing at my notes. I take really short notes and I'm not sure what she's trying to find in it :-\. Strange girl!!

Holiday mood
The core module of MCSE started today. We spent 1/2 the day trying to do installation only ... such a waste of time. Lunch break is suppose to be an hour but its like 1.5 hr past and the lecturer is still not in the class yet. Tomorrow some other lecturer will be replacing him because he will be away. This college really suxs!!

I feel SO discouraged to study when you have shitty lecturers and classmates!!! I'm looking forward to more holidays.

It's a BOY!
OH! NOT my baby. My sis gave birth to a baby boy today. Both families first grandson. Well, for some Chinese it is BIG deal.

My sis was saying too bad he wasn't born yesterday 12/12/2002, since today is Friday 13 *oops!*. Anyways, grats to the both of you!!

Kompre miz
I guess some things are expensive for a reason. Today's the first day of class and I can already tell why AT's tuition fees are so expensive while I is like 1.5k cheaper. My class is made up of 3 extremely ignorant Secondary school leavers, 2 Arabics one of which goes "uh-huh" throughout the whole class, 1 Indian that asks 1001 questions, a lecturer from India that has a FANTASTIC Indian accent that made the students go "HUH" every few words and the bored me.

This module is like a refresher course for me cause I already know 1/2 the stuff they are teaching in this module. What SUXS most is the management. First of all, they knew this week was just after Raya and most muslims would have gone back to their hometown, yet the scheduled for class. Last minute on Monday morning, after I left the house for college, they called to inform class was postponed till unknown. Tuesday, again I went to college only to find out that they called but my maid did not relay the message. Class only starts on Thursday. When class started today, the lecturer said that he was just a stand-in as our lecturer is on leave. Mid of today's class, one guy came in and asked if it was alright for us to come in on Saturday. He said they need to cancel the class for tomorrow as their lecturer is not back from leave. WTF is wrong with this college, if you DON'T have lecturers DON'T BLOODY start the classes!!! The management is so freaking F**ked up!

I really regret for being impatient. I should have waited for AT's intake in January.

I see dead people...
I dreamt of my grandpa, my mom's stepdad. Well, it's kinda confusing my mom's adopted by this muslim couple but they let her keep her race nevertheless. So, she's still a chinese.

My grandpa died a couple of years ago. Few days before he past away he was in a coma and that very last day the doctors said he wouldn't make it through the night and told my aunts to bring him home. My parents and sisters were all there when the brought him home. It was a torture to see watch him since they removed the oxygen support. I think he could hardly breathe. That night we stayed till very late and my parents said we should go home get a change. After we got home, everyone was too tired and my mom said we'll go in the morning instead.

Early next morning, my aunt called to say that my grandpa already passed away at midnite. We weren't there and never got to say our last goodbye. When we got there, since we are chinese and muslims have a different tradition like prayers before cremation, we didnt get to help in anyways. We certainly felt bad but there was nothing we could do.

Yesterday, I dreamt I was sleeping on this wooden bench outside a neighbor's house. It was a windy day. I woke up and decided to walk home. When I got home, there were lotsa people outside the house. And most of the people were dressed in white blouse and blue short pants. My grandma told me that, grandpa will not live through the night. I saw grandpa and he wasn't in a coma, he was pretty much awake. My grandma was pushing me to go hug him and something .. I can't remember what she said. I tried to get to him but too many people were crowding. I wanted very much to hug him very hard and say I'm sorry .. (for whatever reason ... but I felt I wanted to say that)...

Afterthat, I woke up and I was crying. I think its some sort of guilt feeling for not returning after we came home. I feel so BAD. If we could just change things just a little, I would want to stay eventho there's nothing I could do.

Gotta focus!!!
Couple of weeks ago, I said the next time we visit Natural Quartz, we swear I will NOT buy another crystal. Like after 6 months since we last took our Aura Photography, SW, SC and I went back to Natural Quartz. Our picture reading turned out to be satisfactory. The red aura is gone, the tourmaline must have subsided the red aura and brought green aura (career). The new picture is all bluish and very dull green. And the overall color is blurry. The girl explained that, I have too much water which is actually good as it will rot away career and that the blurry colors are because I can't seem to concentrate anything I am doing. She asked me to get an Aquamarine crystal. Being jobless and no income, it did not stop me from buying that crystal. ARGH! I'm so angry at my non-controlled spending :(.

School is starting next Monday. There was a mistake in pricing for the course but I'm so happy they made that mistake :D. Initially Informatics only offered MCSE + CCNA for RM4500 or MCSE + EC Council for RM5300. I requested a quote for MCSE + CCNA + EC Council. The next day she called back and said RM5500. I was pretty surprise because MCSE + EC Council is already RM5300 and all 3 subject they only charge for RM5500. Saturday, I went to sign up. The sales manager was like, "No, I did not quote this price". He called his consultant that spoke to me to check. The girl without hesitation said, "Yea, I asked you and you said okay". He was like "ARGH! You heard the wrong thing". Well too bad for he has no choice. So anyways, I got all 3 subjects at RM5500 :).

This better work out right. I really need these certs to get a better job. Aquamarine, PLEASE do your wonders!!