ALOHA...

This email came in this afternoon!!

From: "xxxxxx"
To: all
Sent: Friday, May 31, 2002 1:15 PM
Subject: Company Retreat

> > Dear employees,
> > The management team realizes that without your contributions, your
> > loyalty, and your dedication to our firm,we would not be as successful as
> > we have become.

> > It takes a great deal of both individual and collective energy to have a
> > successful year in an organization like ours. We would like to thank all
> > of you for your contributions, dedication, commitment and your willingness
> > to go the extra-mile when we needed just to make sure that our customers
> > are satisfied , meeting our deliverables and above all, the high-quality
> > of services.

> > As a token of our appreciation, we would like to organize a Company
> > Retreat for all of you to Club Med Ria Bintan on 12th July to 14th July
> > 2002 (Friday to Sunday).

> > We’re looking forward to more successful years of excitement, growth, and
> > opportunities.

> > Your Sincerely,
> > xxxxxxx

Yes! Something rewarding finally! I haven't done much this year compared to last but *shrug*. Plans for tonight? Well, after work we're gonna hangout at Desa Sri Hartamas.

How dare whine!
I'm feeling a little sick this morning. Maybe it's because it's coming to 3 weeks and my bloody period "ribena-ing" wouldn't stop. It's either it doesnt come for months or it will come and doesn't stop. I feel like I've just given birth and having a month's long period! Visit a gynecologist? Of course I have! All they tell you is "Some people have irregular period .... Take the Pill all your live and you'll be okay!" Damn it! I don't want no freaking side effects from the Pill!

Well, after much contemplating, I had no choice I swallowed one Marvelon. I'm dying ... so strengthless, dizzy and tired and ... and ... stupid ribena-ing! Don't you just hate it? *Bleah* you lucky men don't need to suffer this sh*t!

Next change ...
I'm working on the new layout <-- *good excuse not to blog*.
Here, do some test! I had to do the PPG one (from Michelle's page).



Want more? NO MORE! WORK! WORK! WORK! *whip!*

O Crystal ball ... do you heal?
Okay, I think I spoke too soon about not spending money and what not. Yesterday, we were shopping again and I've always wanted to go to this shop that sells crystal stuff. Not that I believe that crystals' capabilities that much. A month ago P told me about this shop crystal shoppie called Natural Quartz at MidValley. She said you can take this Aura Photography thingy. And she bought this crystal pendant that costs her a bomb. What does Aura Photography do? It is a picture that shows your aura colors that will describe your health, relationship present and past. Hm come to think of it, it's like a prediction thing but hella good prediction I would say!

At that point of time when I walked into that shop I just wanted to take that picture and that was it! All you need to do is put each hands on a metal thing I don't know what it does ... if I'm not wrong it captures the frequency that your body transmits. I'll post that pic if I find a scanner. My picture looks kinda red with some yellowish spots.

The girl explained that I have problems at stomach area (which was very true gastric attacks are very frequent these days). She also said because have this red aura all around me, I'm constantly unhappy, pressuring myself unnecessarily and lack concentration (no wonder I can never concentrate studying - oops I know it sounds like an excuse but at least a better excuse, no?). I'm lacking of Green Aura (Heart chakra) which means I do not have "people" who would be able to help me so it's a hard struggle for me. I can work like a dog and my boss will never notice me (true again ... I work extremely hard and I'm still getting sh*tty pay!). And evenif I change jobs I will not find something that will pay me any better. Also, I don't know what exactly I want in terms of career. So freaky true. But there's one good part!!~ HAHA! Love is (purple color) is coming strong ;) *scan for guys*!! The girl also told us her story. She said since young she's the kind that would have nightmare all night long and when she bought her first crystal few years back, it helped her rest at night. She also showed us many different pictures of bad and good aura.

She told me to wear a Green Tourmaline crystal to help me open my heart chakra. Showed me this really nice pendant Star of David shaped. EXPENSIVE! Yes, it is. The original price was RM560 but after much bargain I got it at RM392. Of course I wouldn't tell anyone at home that my pendant costs me a bomb or they'll slaughter me! 6 months from now, I will take another picture to see if this BOMB actually helped me. Have faith! *blink*. Anyway, here's a picture of the color chakra thingy. What can I say about this crystal thing? Hm you can call it superstitious but to me it seems very true to deny.

Money vs happiness ... which fulfills you?
I've to ground myself from more shoppings. SC bought a Nokia 8390. My dream mobile phone. I must be stingy, I would pay for nice piece of clothing or sports shoes but I would never pay for a RM3000 TAG Heuer neither would I pay for a RM1180 Nokia! I don't know but I feel these stuff are really overpriced or maybe it's me? Well, maybe if I am rich like them I would spend that way? ;p... Anyway, it's just not me ... I'm those cheapo girls that would rather go for Swatch, Nike, cheap yet not totally brandless stuff.

Thou shalt not beg again!
I will NEVER beg again! Damn you AL!! I hate you!

Creep-i-ness
Laziness has creep and found it's way back in me. I keep giving myself excuses not to study. I keep doing this to myself ... where did all motivation go!! I am so lazy demotivated!

This morning pa went to doctor and the doctor told him he's good and doesn't need to be warded again. Good for him! They changed his medication and he feels a little sick. When I got home from work, I brought him to the clinic. The doctor said his pressure was lower than normal but not dangerously low. He was told to continue medication till tomorrow. Hm suddenly I feel like pa's so fragile and old already. It saddens me to see him so weak.

LL told me another "ghost" story today. UGGH! Now I'm scared being alone at the office. Damn you LL!!

Eh...Where are you hiding?
Oops! I've been pretty busy lately. Work is starting to kill me. Anyways, Isetan and Metrojaya's member presale today. Just when there are SALE going on I have to be broke! Why oh why? There'll be a long weekend soon, since next Monday is a public holiday. AH! :ozzzZ I need badly .. hmm or should I go shopping =\. Well, if salary is paid this Friday I can forget about buying anything at all.

SW's been bugging me to join them to Thailand. I'm not really keen going there though. In fact, I've paid deposit for HK tour in October. But with my dad's condition, I'm still contemplating if we should even go anywhere!! Monday, the doctors sent my dad home for a break and tomorrow he has to be admitted again.

Sick again..?
I've been sick more times this year than ever before. My stomach seems to be extremely sensitive to whatever I eat. I spent the whole night going to toilet more than I sleeping. This morning when I called the office my boss said, "Sick again?". Hmm, he must have regretted employing a weakling like me. Tons of things to do and I'm always sick!!

Story time ...
My stomach is feeling sick but I'll continue yesterday's ghost story. Few of my ex-colleagues, Mach, Jas, and Suresh were working late at the office one night. Tired, Mach took a nap. When he woke he looked around for the other two. He saw a black shadow standing behind Jas. He thought he was hallucinating so he lay his head down again. But he decided to look again and he saw that shadow still behind Jas, overlooking. He lays his head on the desk and started praying. When he was done he looked up again and there it was still there! I'm not sure what happened afterwards. The next day he told Jas and she's so afraid to sit at her place now. Mach's not a religious guy, unlike other Muslim fellow colleagues. Some people laughed when he said he prayed and the shadow wouldn't go!

I would never want to encounter such at the office since I'm always alone at work. Spooky stuff *brrrrrr*.

Breakaway...
After 2 weeks of home - work - hospital - home, I finally went out with friends. We to MidValley to watch Dragonfly. We tried to make tele-reservation for Star Wars but of course it has to be sold out. So we got Dragonfly. Before the movie started we went shopping. I desperately need a bag for work so I bought one and SW bought this gorgeous blue bag from Elle. All 3 of us also bought this healing stone thingy. It's a magnetic stone bracelet, it's suppose to help relief rheumatism, arthritis, headaches, high blood pressure, insomnia and physical fatigue! Miracle stone, eh? I don't give much thought about the healing part though. I thought the bracelet looks fancy so I bought one.

OH! Anyway, Dragonfly wasn't such a bad movie unless you don't believe those stuff. Hmm, I'm thinking of continuing to say something but it's like 2AM here and if I say it now I'll be too frighten to sleep alone!! Okay, I'll continue when it's bright daylight! HAHA! Alright, bed time!!

MCSA I need!
I need to discipline myself to study. I want that MCSA credentials or I'll be stuck with this freaking lousy job. I need a new job, I need more $$$$$.

Damn Jaring seems hyperslow today. Nuff ranting! Back to studies!

Who switched off my natural A/C?
*ARGH* Super hot weather! I was clearing my Hotmail account yesterday and I came across this new online dating thing on the web. Curious me, clicked to check out if people really think it works. *BLINK* True enough there were so many people looking for girlfriends on the web. Okay, it's not like I've never dated anyone off the web but ... you should see for yourself! Married guys!! And they just go like "I'm lonely and often traveling ... so looking for a companion". Gees, wtf is wrong with guys like these? Just because you got to work and travel you can't stay true to you wife?

So I wrote a very short email to one of the guys who were advertising for part-time romance. I said, "Aren't you afraid someday, your wife may decide to get on the net and do the same thing like you're doing. Fak some other guys while you're away. Or even worse while she's surfing she finds your ad?"... dumb deperados! I wonder if he'll ever reply. I'll post if he does!!

Poor mom
It's mother's day tomorrow. We bought a bracelet for my mom and gave her today instead. I don't think we'll celebrate though. My dad's still at the hospital. Mom will probably be going to the hospital tomorrow. He's much better. His eye-swell subsided a little but the lab report is still not out.

I still remember, 2 years ago, I had my tonsilities and sinus operation. It was mother's day when I admitted hospital. It may seem like a simple operation but my mom was worried that she cried. I understand though, she had a sister who died from such a minor operation and she was afraid. This year, dad at the hospital. It's not easy being in mom's shoes. I know she must feel very sad. Something bad about us, we never "utter" the word "I love you Mom" nor "I love you Dad" nor do we hug each other. I guess it's just not us to say it out loud. It's so hard to change that bit, I'm just brought up this way. Mom, I wish you could read this though, "I'm sorry for being such a bad daughter, I wanna thank you for everything ... I love you, mom. Happy Mother's Day".

Black Monday
2 years ago my dad had a laser operation for his cataract problem. The doctor who did it is a famous specialist. After the operation my dad frequently complaint eye aching and blur vision. The doctor told him it was normal for people his age and that my dad had diabetes. 2 years passed and my dad went for a second opinion. We found out that the doctor was lying all the time. He had spoilt my dad's cornea and did not tell us the truth. We asked for a referral to do a cornea transplant for my dad. Appointment was suppose to be on the 9th of May.

Last Sunday, my dad complaint eye tearing. On Monday morning, I told him to get his eyes checked. When I got home that night, he was out with some friends and got home only close to 1A.M.. Kwan was very mad. This morning she wrote an email to Shelby saying she will not bother if he complains about his eye again. After reading that email I decided to call and check if he was okay. When I called my mom said my dad has to be admitted immediately. We got to the hospital the eye doctor recommended (fyi there aren't many specialist in Malaysia that does a cornea transplant). Took us 2 hours before the doctor checks him. My dad's eye was infected not only on the surface of the eye but in the eyeball itself too.

The doctor described his eye condition to be servere. Since his cornea is blur like a frosted glass they couldn't see through it. But they suspect the infection is coming from within his eye. So, they stick a needle and took a 0.01ml sample of the "eye gel" from the eyeball for further testing and injected antibiotic into the eye. 2 days from now, if my dad does not respond to the antibiotic, risk is he may lose his eye sight. If this antibiotic wouldn't work, they will inject a suitable antibiotic base on the "eye gel" findings. By doing that, it may cause a scar to his vision too.

The doctor asked if I want to tell my dad or if I wanted the doctor to explain to him. I said no to both because knowing dad, he will worry himself unncessarily. I don't know if I did the right thing but I think it's best for him now. Maybe 2 days when we have more results from the test, I will tell him.

Why does this have to happen? Just when we thought laser is better for him, the doctor had to be careless. Just when we thought we're going to get him a new cornea so he can see better, he's going to lose his vision. Is God trying to fool me? I really don't know =(.

Coming soon ...